I've been thinking a lot lately about my future. Where should I go when I'm done with school? What should I do? A lot of people who know me will probably think this is crazy, but I've been having this urge to become a priest in the Episcopal Church. (for obvious reasons I can't become one in the Catholic Church...). In some ways this makes such perfect sense for me; it would be a way for me to put a lot of the things I'm passionate about together--God, studying religion, music, people, working with children, even travel and environmentalism--these could all be worked into a vocation. And priesthood would give me something to do with my degree of practical use--something that doesn't involve being in a classroom all day and writing obtuse articles about the Being and Nature of God that even I don't understand.

But on the other hand, would I really be able to be a good priest? What makes me think that I have anything helpful to say or teach to a congregation? What makes me worthy to lead a church? And shouldn't priesthood be a calling? How do I know if God is calling me for sure? And I'm pretty sure that no one I know can see me as a minister....

Eh. This is too much introspection for 2AM. I should probably go to bed now so that I can actually be awake for tomorrow. Goodnight world!